Friday, October 12, 2012
I Went With Mommy Today
Hello guys. This is a partial personal post that I considered not doing, but there seems to be a number of people deciding not to continue their doll blogs. Completely understandable. Blogging should be fun and not all consuming. This is interesting because in the past two weeks I too have been completely confused about my doll world. No, I don't want to stop my blog, but I've been trying to decide where I should put my focus. Should it be furniture, food, wood projects, or videos/photostories....or that big doll project that is on the back burner waiting for me to move forward. To add confusion to the pile, I took a doll, per request, to my doctor's visit last Friday. The request was made because the people in the doctor's office, that read the FDQ article, kept thinking I made Barbie dolls. Since the article refers to dolls I've made in the past, but shows only pictures of Barbie dolls, the confusion is understandable. So I took a porcelain baby doll, I made years ago. Of course, one of my doctors decides to order one for her daughter. In my head, I said, "Heck no! I'm already having trouble focusing on what doll projects to do. We are NOT adding porcelain dolls back to that list." But when I spoke, it sounded like this, "Sure I can make one for your daughter." Who said that! Could not have been me. Then she asked me to bring a doll each time I come to the office. I know I am asking for trouble, but I enjoy having my dolls with me.
Today it was this beautiful little girls chance to get out of the basement. Boy was she happy! She made lots of friends who oooh and ahhhed over her. All she wanted to do was get down and crawl around the doctor's office. She was totally fascinated by all the needles and IVs. She liked when the nice nurse brought us hot chocolate the best.
She had a good time, but was happy to get back home.
So what have I decided about my doll world? My doll world is bigger than me. I was reminded of that when I received two separate emails this week. One was from a young lady who said (paraphrased), "I've been a fan for a long time, well since I was 11. And I love your blog and your stories." I fell out laughing. She is now 13, and for someone that young to stay with me for two years, is impressive. The second email was from a 9 year old who wanted help doing dioramas. I get emails and messages all the time. Some of them are so heartfelt about how my dolls have touched their lives. So my decision is, I will continue doing what I do. There will be stories, a few videos, food and furniture. I will not feel guilty about not painting the porch. It will get done. If I am tired from chemo, I will not feel guilty about not doing a story. Bottom line, I will not feel guilty. I will have fun and continue touching lives.
P.S. I've been on a new treatment for almost two months and it's now working! Yay! Even though it's chemo, it's not the really toxic kind. I won't have a lot of side effects. I won't lose my hair, but it may get a little thinner. Occasional numbness in my legs, toes and hands, but for short periods of time. Some fatigue, but nothing crippling.